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Happy Mother's Day!
May 13, 2007 | 2:10 PM
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Before I was a Mom
I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.   Before I was a Mom-I had never been: Puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.
I slept all night.   Before I was a Mom
I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.   Before I was a Mom
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to
put them down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I
couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.   Before I was a Mom -
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so
important and happy.   Before I was a Mom -
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.   I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom.

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survivormom read my blog view my photos
May 13, 2007 | 7:38 PM

Thank you for the post Angelbluz. Isn't this ever so true~~~
AngelBluz_40 read my blog view my photos
May 13, 2007 | 9:54 PM

Same thoughts I had when I first read it. My neice forward it to me last night,and thought that I would share it with everyone :0)
jigsgirl read my blog view my photos
May 14, 2007 | 10:56 AM

Wow Angel that is one of the most real things that I have ever read, I'm getting a little misty here at work because just reading that makes me want to go and get my daughter and just hold her. Thank you!!!
klh1886 read my blog view my photos
May 14, 2007 | 12:58 PM

Children are one thing that can bring out every emotion all at the same time.
AngelBluz_40 read my blog view my photos
May 14, 2007 | 9:40 PM

Aww,Sorry jigsgirl,didn't mean to make you all misty eyed! but I do know how you feel,wishing that you can spend every moment with your children,I sure do,(well sometimes) LOL! They grow up so fast that's for sure.


KLH,you are right about that!
BUSDRIVERMAN read my blog
May 15, 2007 | 2:53 PM

GIMMIE A BREAK,PLEASE, IT'S NOT ALL THAT TO EVERYONE, SAVE IT FOR A FUNERAL, KIDS PLAY ALOT OF MOMMIES FOR A FOOL, AND MOST OF THEM SUCK IT IN, GO ASK ALL THOSE KIDS THAT WERE IN ADOPTION HOMES BECAUSE MOM IS/WAS DOPE ADDICTS, THIS WAS GOOD IN THE "40'S OR 50'S" BUT TODAY KISS THIS THINKING GOOD BYE, THAT'S WHY ALOT OF DADS LEAVE, BECASUE MOM JUST CAN'T SAY NO!!!!
survivormom read my blog view my photos
May 15, 2007 | 3:31 PM

Busdriver...I believe this post was intended for MOMMMIES...not baby making machines or rude people like you!!
AngelBluz_40 read my blog view my photos
May 15, 2007 | 4:51 PM

Oh please! BusdriverBOY,grow the HECK UP!!!
Don't need your rude comments!
foxeighter read my blog
May 15, 2007 | 7:50 PM

BUSDRIVERMAN.... YOU NEED A SHRINK....
jigsgirl read my blog view my photos
May 16, 2007 | 10:37 AM

Busdriver, first of all your negativity shows your ignorance when it comes to kids. I was in a foster home for my first 13 months, not sure what was wrong with my birth mother but I know first hand what that feels like and not to have that bond that is so important the first couple months of your life. I was blessed when my parents came in and wanted me. So don't assume that all parents are the same. It is more than possible for a parent to love so hard and still say no. But then again your not a mom you could never understand the range of emotions or bond that a mom and child share. Get off your high horse and come back to reality. Some men leave because they are cowards and when the going gets tough they run. Is that what you did since you are so sensitive on the subject???
JACKIE1981 read my blog
May 16, 2007 | 9:33 PM

That was awesome! Like you know already angelbluz_40, I am having my brain surgery tomorrow. Reading that made me stop in my tracks and think about my son even more. Makes me think about how my son is the only one who could feel my heartbeat from the inside, and how I was the only one who could actually feel him grow...all that good stuff. I don't care what busdriver says, a real mom knows how touching that is. I was a young mom, having my son at 18, and it is the truth...only a mom REALLY knows how much having a baby really changes what you do, how you do things, and the impact that little ones have on your life. If it wasn't set in my son's heart that I have this surgery and for his mom to "be normal again", I probably wouldn't have tried fthis for the third time. You do things for your child that you never, EVER, thought you would do. Congrats on this blog, it generates so much emotion.
AngelBluz_40 read my blog view my photos
May 17, 2007 | 3:17 AM

Jackie, It's hard for me to respond because I can't find enough words to put down.What you said,it really touched me. This also goes for jigsgirl. Although i'm not a religous person but I do believe the saying "God gave us children for a reason". I am greatful to have my children.at one point in my life I didn't think that I was able to have any but,God has blessed me with 3 beautiful kids.
And you are right,IT TAKES A REAL MOTHER TO FEEL THE LOVE AND BOND WITH HER CHILDREN.
At least we have them to love,care for ,teach and hold on to each day.
I could go on but it looks like one certain piece of scum likes to act immature. Too bad fox8 doesn't give you an option to BLOCK certain people!!

But anyways,Jackie,I am going to continue with you being in my thoughts and prayers. I wish you the very best in a speedy recovery.
Your son is blessed for having such a great mommy :0)
Many hugs to you and your son!
jigsgirl read my blog view my photos
May 17, 2007 | 1:54 PM

Jackie, you and your son are in my thoughts and prayers. If anything or anyone is going to inspire you to fight to recover and be "normal" again, it will be that little man of yours. You both deserve all the love, health and happiness in the world. I too had my son when I was 18, 20 days after i turned 18 as a matter of fact and it is an experience that I would never change. My oldest daughter I had when I was 21 and I thought I was done, no more kids for me.I decided to have my tubes tied last year and went in for consultaion with my OB, 2 weeks later on Mother's day I found out that I was 5 weeks pregnant with my daughter. So I am a firm believer that God has a plan for us and that children are his greatest gift. My youngest is 4 months and has put a new spin on my life. I have slowed down to enjoy every minute and I cherish my kids in a new light now. You hang in there and fight this and put yourself in God's hands. He will bring you through.
fuzzytin read my blog
Oct 4, 2007 | 11:34 PM

I to beleve that your children are your life.Think about it the only other time you feel unconditional love is from your parents,and when you have your own you find out what it is to love some one no matter what.I honestly beleve my children save my life with out them I truly have the slightest idea whare I would be in life and with all that life has thrown me I feel I would be dead or in prison I had my first child 3 months before my 18th birthday and with the crap I was doing he came right in the nick of time to save my life.So whwn Iget overwhelmed with being so young and having so many children and I get sick of the staring when I walk down the street with my seven year old,my six year old,my three year old,my one year old,who is barley walking so shes in a stroller and my one month old who strapped to me in a pouch and people look at me funny and say look at that poor young girl with all those babies.I take that time to remind myself that I am truly blessed to have five heathy babies who also bring a lot of joy and purpose to my life its like all of them have a peice of my heart and with out any of them part of meis missing.
jigsgirl read my blog view my photos
Oct 5, 2007 | 9:41 AM

fuzzy

Don't worry about what those people think, your doing the right thing and with that many kids so close together, girl you have your hands full and I applaude you. My oldest 2 are 3 years apart but my third is 9 years younger than my youngest and I know I have my hands full. I work 2 jobs and still barely make it but everyday when I wake up to all the smiles and love I wouldn't change it for all the money in the world. God blessed you with your children to save you and it sounds like it worked. Keep up the hard work and it will pay off in the end. I completely understand what your feeling about a part of you would be missing because until i had my last child i felt that way, and now my life seems complete and worthwhile. Good luck with everything and God bless you and your kids.
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AngelBluz_40

I've been married for seven years with three young children.We have two Chihuahuas,two cats and birds. My husband and I grew up on Cleveland's westside and have noticed many changes to the city and surrounding areas. Some good,some bad. I like to do different crafts with my children.love the outdoors,love watching FOX8,country music,80's music,and many other interest.

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